"Keeping to myself"...
For some, they call it their conscience, for believers in Christ, we call this feeling the whisper of the Holy Spirit, in politics I've heard them call it "the better angels of our nature"...but I believe all humans have an internal moral compass that nudges and pesters and convicts and guides them. It can be suppressed, compartmentalized, seared, even disowned...but this Voice is not going anywhere.
The Voice has been speaking to me as of late. To the best of my discernment, this is what I'm hearing...
1. You have too much to offer to keep to yourself.
2. You have too many gifts to just keep to yourself.
3. You have too many resources to keep for yourself.
4. You have too many dreams to keep to yourself.
5. You have too much life that people need to keep to yourself.
6. You have too nice of a house to keep it all to yourself.
7. You have too much food to keep it stored up for yourself.
8. You have too much free time to keep to yourself.
9. You have too many friends to stay by yourself.
10. You have too much purpose to live for yourself.
11. You have too much hope to offer to hide stay away and preserve yourself.
12. You have too little time to pity yourself.
13. You have too much invested in you to hoard it for yourself.
14. You have too much time left to grind it out by yourself.
15. You have too beautiful a family to play it safe by yourself.
Something about "keeping to myself" has just been resonating off the walls of my mind. I see it all around me, but I feel its seduction within me. It's baiting me to play it safe and cave in to resignation. To not get my hopes up so that I'm not disappointed. To not invest myself so that I don't risk failure. To conserve my energy as a spirit of scarcity plagues me more and more as I age. To retreat from challenges telling myself I've bled enough already. To move toward survival mode and to store up for myself all that I need to brave this brutal life and its violence to one's soul.
It's all a lie. Jesus knows that that only way to "find your life is to lose it" and the only way to "keep what you have is to give it away". So this idea of "keeping to myself by myself for myself with myself" is utter nonsense and will only hasten the day of my destruction.
I just wanted to get this out there. I wonder if anyone hears the voices that paralyze them and longs to hear the Voice that will catalyze them. All I know is we've got to forget the voices, and listen to The Voice. Our lives depend on it...
"I heard the voice of One speaking to me..." - Ezekiel 1
Oh, to hear the Voice of One in the noise of many. To have a theophany in the cacophony.
The Voice has been speaking to me as of late. To the best of my discernment, this is what I'm hearing...
1. You have too much to offer to keep to yourself.
2. You have too many gifts to just keep to yourself.
3. You have too many resources to keep for yourself.
4. You have too many dreams to keep to yourself.
5. You have too much life that people need to keep to yourself.
6. You have too nice of a house to keep it all to yourself.
7. You have too much food to keep it stored up for yourself.
8. You have too much free time to keep to yourself.
9. You have too many friends to stay by yourself.
10. You have too much purpose to live for yourself.
11. You have too much hope to offer to hide stay away and preserve yourself.
12. You have too little time to pity yourself.
13. You have too much invested in you to hoard it for yourself.
14. You have too much time left to grind it out by yourself.
15. You have too beautiful a family to play it safe by yourself.
Something about "keeping to myself" has just been resonating off the walls of my mind. I see it all around me, but I feel its seduction within me. It's baiting me to play it safe and cave in to resignation. To not get my hopes up so that I'm not disappointed. To not invest myself so that I don't risk failure. To conserve my energy as a spirit of scarcity plagues me more and more as I age. To retreat from challenges telling myself I've bled enough already. To move toward survival mode and to store up for myself all that I need to brave this brutal life and its violence to one's soul.
It's all a lie. Jesus knows that that only way to "find your life is to lose it" and the only way to "keep what you have is to give it away". So this idea of "keeping to myself by myself for myself with myself" is utter nonsense and will only hasten the day of my destruction.
I just wanted to get this out there. I wonder if anyone hears the voices that paralyze them and longs to hear the Voice that will catalyze them. All I know is we've got to forget the voices, and listen to The Voice. Our lives depend on it...
"I heard the voice of One speaking to me..." - Ezekiel 1
Oh, to hear the Voice of One in the noise of many. To have a theophany in the cacophony.
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